I do not want to blog. Ahhhhh, my life is a mixture of wanting that great relationship and not quite finding it. I am at that peak, so close, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel, but its still not quite there. I play peaceful music to calm the pain, but there is that voice in my lovely mind bickering at that desire, wanting to explore it. I feel like I am a loser in a way, in fact I feel like the right girl may be there, but I feel like I am apprehensive to pursue her.
Halloween was the sum of this pursuit, almost making it it but not quite. Should I depend on others to entertain me, am I just coming into right situations with wrong motives? I just want to be loved, cherished for who I am, where I am at, be and just be okay with it. I guess God, my Lord, you are here, and I am here. I choose you over Eve, because you are a God of full-orbed love that can satisfy my desires and ever so vibrant passion. I choose you with all my heart, soul, mind and strength, to grow me, mold me, place me, grace me, and revel at your beautiful son...me. Thank you for loving me.
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